nathaniel the gay guy is amazing. =]]

"WTF"

see what i did there
all night long i think of u
never dreaming, never sleeping
never need to really--
i live on the thought of your voice
well--and food and the
major necessities of life
but only those things--
you and food--and water
but mostly love

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"Where the Fuck is my Medicine"
anxiety washes over me
no way i can stop this
i just can't help it--
it's me--the person i
always try to avoid
it always gets me in the end

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"Eagle in the Night"

it's time to leave now
i don't want to go
my mind says yes
my body--hell no

i can't imagine losing you to this storm
i used to remember when you were so warm
i won't understand what it's like to just be
i'll never be able to just be free

i'm hearing my voice for the first time tonight
i can't say i like it--but it feels kinda nice
sometimes i think of what it used to be like
to love someone deeply--not ending with a knife

'cause you stabbed my back so long ago
you don't remember but i can tell you so
it hurt so bad--it cut so deep
i'll never be able to just be free

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"Doctor"

the truth is telling me to leave, to go
i always ask why but i never know
the feelings are like rain in the sea
nobody needs it or wants it--just me

this feeling i feel is beyond all beliefs
i never can remember why i feel it--maybe
it's telling my i need to change, to grow
high-pitched scream of the pager--time to go


those were all poems i wrote a few weeks ago when i was sick and hyper...i had just thrown up like 3 times and i was trying to work on my poem anthrology project for english...so there you go. and fyi, i'm not gonna put those up here because i hate them. =[[